“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” – Neil Gaiman

Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her sperm, she’ll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she’ll give you a home. If you give her groceries, she’ll give you a meal. If you give her a smile, she’ll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive. – Unknown

A lot has happened since the last post, mostly at work. Work has kept me very busy and helped me a lot in the ageing process. ML stepped into office yesterday only to say to my face, “These few weeks have aged you ah…”. -_-”"

While work tires me out, stresses me out, and sometimes things happen that make me think about quitting. Overall, I have to admit that I am rather thankful for getting this job. A few things to be grateful for:

• I managed to get myself out of a job in SCB which was painfully boring and career non-advancing.
• The people here are way nice and I couldn’t ask for a better working environment, though sometimes I do wish I had friends here to speak of.
• The learning curve is continually forcing me to push new boundaries, though I’m beginning to think that the boss wishes she had hired someone who was somewhat brilliant, versus mediocre me. I try and I hope to have the passion and determination to keep trying till I make it.
• The hours here are decent. I spoke to janitor auntie when I stepped out at 8pm, her day starts at 730am and ends at 9pm, and she’s not young.
• The office is near home and near a gym, so I can work my butt off and burn some calories.

So this post has nothing really to do with Abhisit. I did return from Bangkok recently over the weekend when the state of emergency was announced, and it made me think about politics and ideals for a bit, but that’s a conversation that would take far too long and meander down many different conflicting paths, which I’d like to avoid. But yes, when Abhitsit was first installed as PM, I did think he was rather cute, in a strange way.  I’m so weird.